bye-bye mood.

guess what? my mood just flies away leaving me alone with sadness. sadness doesnt help at all. all it did was borrowing me its mask and let me pretend like i'm fine. yeah, thanks sadness. (: so, he found SGGS's last year school magazine at his cousin's. yeah, i just found out recently that his cousins is actually my schoolmates except that we're in a different years. he text me and asked which class am i when i'm in form 3. i was like, why are u asking? he said that he has found our school magazine and he's looking for me. well i did asked him NOT TO search for me but then, walla! he found it. -.- there are lots of reasons why i dont want him to see me in it. the main reason is because, I LOOK HIDEOUS. then, for sure he'll make fun of it and of course i'm not happy with it. i totally hate that fugly picture. totally. but since he found me, there's nothing i can do. it's not like i or he can turn back the time. i feel like burst into tears. that was so embarrassing!oh well, alright darling, i'll prepare myself with your sarcastic words and jokes about it kay. *sigh* well, which gf/bf want their beloved ones to see them in their baddest condition right? so, i told him not to call me tonight because i know he'll talk and make fun of it. and i'm not in the mood to hear everything he wants to say about it. ok then. byeeeee. btw, i'm still wearing the mask and waiting till midnight comes so that i can let my pillow to absorb my tears and let my eyes get sepet next morning.

ok, just kidding about tears and eyes part. xD

what a great time. (:

well, this is us on RIMUP day. (: i'm the only one weird on that day. xD i was wearing kebaya with pants. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

this one, right after PMR. can't remember the date. lol

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA this fugly picture is from my last day in school (2009). i brought my cute little notebook to school and i think we were watching Liar Game at that moment.

yeah, we still managed to snap a few after that, on the same day. we were on our way to the hall. when we get back to the lab, it was locked and all our stuffs were inside. well yeah, we're kind of panic at that time.

meet my first friend in bangi. ^^ Teera Azhar. this one was taken on our class pasty at Hez's.

YAAAAAAAY!! bye-bye peeps. that's all. malas nak upload banyak2 sebenarnye. xD ok, bye 2010, hello 2011! (:

McD.

semalam aku pegi la jogging dgn umi tersayang and adik aku yg sorg ni. pegi pukul 6 and blk ntah pkul brape. mcm nak dkat pukul 8 pun ada. half way jogging, rasa mcm nak pitam. taktau knape. umi taktau psal tu. i just keep on pacing up with them. then, bile nak bernafas, rasa sakit sgt kat dada and blakang. susah sgt nak breathe. so takpe la. time nak beli breakfast, duduk kjap. bile nak blk, sumpah rasa mcm nak tumbang. mana taknye, jalan pun dah tak betul dgn mata dah berpinar-pinar. mcm nak pitam. duduk jap kat sideway tu. hbs smua org tgk. umi dah mcm, "anis ok tak? nak umi amek kereta ke?". then aku ckp la tak pyh. so, blk tu kteorg tak jogging. we walked. (: smpai rumah mmg dah lembik hbs ahhh. mkn jap pastu terus cari katil. xD ptg tu jogging lagi but this time we went to taman tasik cempaka. yeah, umi ckp ptg kat situ plak. ok fine. dah jog jog jog skali umi ajak pegi mcd. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA penat je jogging. skali telan mcd. pergghhhh terbaik ahhh. xD

aku dah penat ok? dah penat sgt.

ape masalah kau la sial?! aku ade buat pape ke kat kau? ok i admit that it's my fault that my mom cancelled the plan to go back to penang last minute and u deserve to be mad at me. yeah, i know that but have u ever think of my feelings? have you? i cried on that day. i had a fight with my mom. i locked myself in my room. kau ckp kau phm situation aku, feelings aku bile aku ckp aku tak dpt blk. yeah u said that to other people tpi knape nak kne ungkit blk psal bnda tu kat aku? on the same day u told her. ape kau igt penang tu kat seberang jln rumah aku ke? kalau ye, dah lama aku pegi. mmg hari2 aku nanti lepak situ. my mom decides everything. she's the one who's going to drive, duit dia, tenaga dia. aku sape nak suruh dia blk time2 tu jgk. kalau dah dia kata tak jadi, tu tak jadi la. aku dah mntk maaf en? kau nak suruh aku buat ape lagi? melutut dpn kau? sujud dpn kau? cium tapak kaki kau baru kau puas? i've been trying to talk to my mom, asking her every single day about when we're going back to penang. i tried ok and i still am. i even mntk paper spm dari senior kat penang. buat pe susah2 mntk dari org jauh padahal bangi ade je. bkn takde. aku tak knal senior, kwn2 aku smua knal. suruh dorg mntkkan. bukan susah pun en? bile kau buat something kat aku, u said stuff about me, ade aku ungkit? ade aku perli2 smua? takde en? kau nak tacing2, fine tacing la. i always there and play along with u. kau nak perli2 aku, mmg dah slalu pun. u said u dont deserve to be our friend, my friend, then why talked to me in the first place? u said u dont deserve to be in the group, then why joined the group? no one force u to do so. kau ckp kau bdk kmpg la, hina la, buruk la, pathetic la, amende tah lagi. have i ever said that to u? have i? dude, aku pun bdk kmpg kay. i dont buy gucci, prada and all. i dont own one tpi aku takde la smpai menghina diri mcm kau. aku dah penat ahhh pujuk kau. hari2 nak kna pujuk, nak kna perli, nak kna maki dgn kau. aku dah malas. dah penat sgt. sakit kpala aku. sakit sangat. have i ever judge you? i dont give a shit about how u look like, how rich are u, how famous are u or how pathetic u are. i tried my best to be the most reliable person for u. when i told u that i've bought the necklace for u, i told u not to tell the other kan? one of the good reason is because you're my special friend. i give u more attention and priority than the others. and what u do? u told them and now i've to spend 60 bucks to buy for them. mmg aku bnyk duit plak time2 cuti ni nak turun kl semata-mata nak beli bnda tu ja? it's worthless tau tak? worthless. tak guna aku turun kl smata-mata utk bnda tu je. tolong la, you're not the only person who's important to me. i've my love ones too ok? aku tak phm ape yg aku dah buat smpai kau kna layan aku camni. have u ever think about everything i did for u? have u ever consider about my feelings? asyik aku je yg kna jaga perasaan kau. time kau marah, kau lpas geram kat aku. penah aku ckp pape? no. aku pujuk lagi ada. when u have problems, u told me and after that everything that u said will stuck into my head for days and it gives me a major headache. kau ape tau? sbb kau tak penah nak ambik kesah pun. kau cerita masalah kau dgn wani a day before my finals, aku takleh study tau tak lpas tu, takleh focus langsung. asyik fikir psal bnda tu je. yeah u dont ask me to that. mmg kau tak suruh pun aku fikir masalah kau. aku tau tpi sbb kau my top best friend, whatever problems that u told me, i feel what u feel. i think to much and i get myself migraine. kau tau tak psal tu? tak en? aku tak penah bgtau pun en? why? sbb aku tak kesah pun psal tu. i dont mind u fill my head with your stories, your problems, your feelings smua. aku tak kesah dpt migraine bile fikir bnyk2 because i care about u and all i get is this? i guess my boyfriend was right. i dont deserve a friend like u. maybe i'm too good for u. so now u decide what to do. aku dah malas dah. kau nak ckp dgn aku, ok kau ckp. kau nak cerita ape2, cerita la. kau nak bg semak otak aku pun aku tak kesah. kau nak tacing pun tacing la. kau nak maki ke perli ke ape ke, buat la. aku dah tak larat dah. penat sgt. sorry again sbb tak dpt blk penang, bile chatting dgn kau, aku ckp dgn boyfriend aku, bile kau cerita masalah kau kat IM fb, aku tak reply sgt sbb kau asyik on off je, so everything yg aku type mcm karangan tu tak smpai kat kau and all. sorry for everything. aku malas nak gado ngan kau sbnrnye. sbb tu aku telan je smua yg kau ckp. so, kau buat la ape yg kau nak. bye.

we've made up on saturday. (: he apologize and i'm happy to accept it. there's a lot of stuff happened on that day but i wont tell about it. i dont think it's necessary. ok so, we've been together for a month now. wow. how time could pass by so fast. last night he called me before 10.30 pm. he told me not to call him because he's not feeling well. at first, i was like, oh ok. i'm fine with it. but then after a while like half an hour later, i feel the urge to call him but i cant. i miss him so much but i cant call him because he asked me not to. i tried to sleep but i cant close my eyes. idk why. so, i make myself busy but still the urge to call him is still there. at last, he called me at 11.37 pm. :D i was so happy, excited actually. i picked up and i'm glad to hear his voice. he said that he couldnt hold the urge to call me either. he missed me so badly that when he suddenly woke up and he remembered me. he said that he was like hearing my voice inside him. that's what make him call. he's not feeling well and yet he still wants to talk to me. he should have taken a rest. i should have ask him to do so but i cant take myself to tell him that. we talked until i-dont-know-what-time. xD he said that he's exhausted and he needs some sleep. so, after he hung up, i bring myself to bed and have a good night sleep.

hello suffer.

Ok so, my life nowadays wasn’t that great like before. Just yesterday, my life has been hectic. My mom cancelled our plan to go to Penang. I was sad and mad at my mom because I’ve told them about my visit and she suddenly cancels everything. Idk how to explain to them. I was totally fuckin’ sad but I can shed any tears. So, I called him and I told him about it. I burst into tears. Seriously, I sound horrible. That was soooo embarrassing. He said that I cried like lil kids. Then, I told Farah about it and she was sooooo mad about it. She ignored me for the whole day. She said I’m no different than the others. I was sad when she said that. Why? Because I do want to be different than other people for her. I love her more than I love others. Why? Because I know her inside out and vice versa. (: after a short ‘conversation’ with my mom, I locked myself in my room. I only came out when it is necessary. When my dad talks to me, I was like, ignore him and do my stuff. It’s a good thing he didn’t ask what’s wrong with me. If not, I’m afraid I would be shouting or yell at him. I don’t want that to happen. I even had my lunch in my room. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA my mom was mad that I eat in my room but who cares. Pfft… I wasted most of my time locking myself in my room.

Then, last night I called him because I miss him. I was at the toilet when he’s having another ‘hot’ conversation with someone else. When I came back, I was shocked to hear him shouting and yelling outrageously. He freaks me out. Seriously. He’s still mad when we continue our conversation. I tried to talk nicely with him. Try to calm him down but I don’t know where went wrong. When I said something, he will be like, “u jgn buat I bengang bole tak?” I tried to find something to say to him but I was afraid to say it. Why? Because I don’t want him to be even mad than before. So I told him that idk what to say and he said, “kalau taktau nak ckp ape, hang up je”. I was like, “do u mean it?” I was so sad that he could actually say that. And he said yes. I asked him numerous times and he replied the same thing in an angry voice. So, without hesitation, I hang up on him. I decided not to call him anymore unless I’ve something to say to him. Well, even if I want to call him, I’ll try to hold myself. I’ll busy myself with something. It is painful not to hear his voice but what else can I do? He said that himself. He utters the words that I totally didn’t expect from him. The words that hurt me. So, bye. At least my mom would be happy that she won’t see me spending my time having some conversation on the phone.

results.

i went to school just now to get my slip. ok my mom doesnt nag much this time. why? because i only failed one subject. unlike before. hahahaha. ok i really need to push harder next year. seriously. i dont have much to say. so, byeeeeee. :D

got busted.

ok so this evening, i played badminton with my mom. well, the actual plan was we're going for a jog but she changed her mind at the minute. that's one thing i dislike about her. so after we played, i called him. then my mom found out and she was like, "telefon sape tu? sape telefon sape?" and i told her that i'm calling someone from penang. and she was like, "mai umi nak ckp". ok i admit that i didnt panic or what. i gave her the phone and she talked but he didnt reply. hahahahaha lucky. xD then she said, "dia dah letak dah". i put it close to my ear and i found out that he DID NOT hung up yet. -.- and so she asked me to hung up. so i hung up. i called him again just now and he was wondering why i suddenly hung up. i was like, did he heard the conversation between my mom or not? but it's ok. i dont mind at all if he talked to my mom just now. i seriously dont care. (: anyway, my mom had confirm that we're going back to penang this friday. hopefully she didnt change her mind. ok that's all. byeeeeee. :D

sambal belacan.

ok malas nak type in english. nak guna malay plak. :D ok tdi aku tgh buat sambal belacan. bukan aku yg nak mkn. umi yg nak. so, tgh tumbuk sambal belacan tu, skali ada yg TERmasuk dalam mata. pedih siaaaaal! aku pun ape lagi, kelam kabut ahh pegi masuk toilet terus masuk air dlm mata. pedih dia pergghhhhh. rasa mcm ada org korek mata kluar. then dah cuak dah sbb time tu pun dah pkul 12.30 dgn ikan tak goreng lagi, apa pun tak buat lagi. sambal belacan tak siap lagi. takut umi blk pkul 1. pastu pegi kat my dad tnye dia mcm mne nak buat en sbb dah pedih sgt. dia ckp amende tah tpi ade kaitan dgn kucing. dia ckp petua org tua2. haaaa ape lagi. pegi kuar amek london yg time tu tgh tido dgn nyenyaknye. kesian dia. ok then, my dad amek london and sapu kat mata. tpi tak lama lpas tu elok dah la mata. wow. mujarab wwwoooooo. hahahahaha. xD kay la, nak mandi ahhhh... berpeluh peluh. -.- pfftttt... byeeeeeeeee. :D

mummy got FACEBOOOOOOOOK!

ok so, my mom has created an fb account for herself with my help of course. i was talking with him on the phone last night but my mom asked me to stay by her side ALL THE TIME! so sadly, we've to ended our conversation. ): when she went to take a bath, i quickly open mine and private EVERYTHING. i seriously dont want her to add me. it's too risky. my brothers and amalina was like asking my mom to add me. i sent death glares at my brothers so that they would shut the fuck up. i feel like strangle them at that time. luckily my mom didnt at me. well, at the moment of course. there wont be any privacy if she add me. so, i'm hoping that no one would tell my mom about me. she'll kill me for sure. thank you. (: i appreciate your help.

i'm sorry. D:

this noon, i talked to him on the phone and i barely heard what he said even though i tried to concentrated on his voice. he asked something and idk what i said and that makes him hurt. he was hurt because of something i said. so, he hung up. well, i did say sorry but i really am sucks in persuading people. i never good in it because i'm used to people persuading me. well, i'm sorry syg sbb buat u marah. i didnt mean to do it. ): i called him twice and i talked to him but it was a short conversation so i didnt get to say much. so just now, he's online on fb. i wanted to talked to him but idk what to say bcause well, u cant just pretend that nothing happened right? so, i decided to talked to him when suddenly he went offline. i was totally broken heart. then, he online back! :D YATTA! so, i talked to him. (: chatting with him right now. ok byeee.

physics.

ok so, today we're having physics. it was awesome. i never knew that physics could be that easy. answering essay questions was like doing standard 6 english paper. well, that's after the teacher guided us about how to answer it. no wonder my boyfie love physics so much. (: so anyway, this evening when we're having physics, i was the first to arrived. well, i dont expect that to be because i thought i was late. then, amalina came in and she was like, "weh asl panas sgt?" then, she went out and she asked one of the people in charge to decrease the temperature. then, like less than half an hour later, the room started to feel like being in a refrigerator. it was so cold. or physics teacher was like, "sejuknye. awak semua tak sejuk? ke saya sorg je yg rasa?". amalina starts to giggle and i was holding my laughter. it was funny. i was freezing till i get home. -.- so, i decided to make myself a hot drink. so now i'm feeling better. (: so, the conclusion here is, physics ain't that bad. it just that, we've set our mind and say that physics was so damn hard and we hate it, that's why we never score higher than what we expected.

Perfect Two - Auburn

listening to Perfect Two by Auburn and this song reminds me of him. (: i'm going to let him listen to this song. hopefully he loves it. i really want him to know this song. ok now everyone know who is my boyfriend. oh well. i dont mind as long as you guys leave us alone. :D

iloveyou,
SHAIKH UQHAILI ASH-QHALANI. :3

Though you are not one in a million,
but i promise you,
you are the only one i want.

kiss me in the rain, love me in the dark,
hold me till the end and never break my heart.

HEART OF AN ANGEL, EYES OF THE DEVIL,
HE HAS CAPTURED MY SOUL ♥

so well yeah. here i am. doing nothing and having an empty mind right now. looking at the screen blankly. ok so someone told me to merapu anything on my blog so TADAAAAAAAA! xD oh ok, idk what it is exactly. never mind. ok bye! (:

so no in the mood.

idk why but i dont feel happy today. i've been wearing the same stone mask whole day long. i just realize that i didn't smile at all today. not even once. if there is then it is a fake smile. i've been talking like nothing happened to me. as if i'm still the same happy person. even when i'm chatting or texting, i'll be like happy and all but in reality, there's no feelings exist. i dont feel sad. i dont feel mad. i dont feel happy. nothing. i feel nothing. i haven't eaten anything yet since breakfast. i didnt take my lunch. just dont feel like eating. -.- ok, what the hell is wrong with me?! is it that what i've keep to myself all this while, all the secrets, all the problems i'm facing is finally eating myself from inside? wow. great. why now? why when i'm starting to have a happy life? feels like going into sleeping mode till everything is over. i dont feel like talking to anyone but i HAVE to talk to people so that no one notices. well, so far no one notices. oh well, i hope tomorrow's going to be a good day. cheers! (:

end of so-called-single-life-story.

so ok. all this while, i've been single and available but i admit that it's kind of boring. -.- but now, i've someone that'll cherish my day. on November 20th 2010, i accepted him as my boyfie. well, at first i don't expect him to have feelings towards me because i treat him like a good friend and we were going well as friends. i knew him since we were 8. (: u guess right. he's my classmate and a smartass from primary school. i didn't realize at all that he's been watching me all this while. i mean, in primary school of course. i always notice if someone's watching me but i didn't notice him. he said that he looked at me when i was doing something like talking to a friend or something. he said that he's afraid to confessed to me because he's afraid by the fact that i'll reject him and i once asked him if i'm that 'charming' when we were 12 because i'm like having loads of admirer and it freaks me out. i'm not like trying to brag or something but it's true. it's totally freaks me out. i received love letters from a junior who is TWO YEARS younger than me. i repeat, LOVE LETTERS. 2 guys from next class have feelings towards me, a guy who i hate so much when we were 12 have the same feelings too and now this. ok, i really don't want to hear any confessions from guys from primary school anymore. i hope he'll be the last one. (:

this guy wasn't that hot but i dont give a shit about that, his voice is hot, his laughter is cute, he's nice, caring, he's totally in love with me, he cherish every single day of my life, he knows how to be romantic and he's totally different from others. too much to describe about this guy. we'll be talking like more than 5 hours each day. we'll be calling each other at night like 11 pm and talking till 2 - 3 am. crazy wasn't it? xD yeah i admit, it is crazy but hey, it's so damn hard to resist listening to the sweet voice of his. his way is so unpredictable. really. he made me say stuff which i find hard to say before easily and that's what i like about him. i regret for not following my mom went back to penang the other day because he bought me something. well, that's according to him. idk if it's true or not but i guess it's true. that is so sweet of him. his sisters like me. (: and he was like, wondering what kind of magic did i used because all this while, his sisters dislike his ex-es very much. i totally don't expect that to happened because i only talked to them like a friend. i'm not like trying to get them to like me. no. i wasn't thinking it that way but yeah, i'm happy that his sisters accept me. :D he said that he's going for marine engineering. that'll take like 8 years of studying. he said he'll be waiting for me. wait, it's the other way round wasn't it? :o well, hell yeah! i WILL be waiting for him. i do hope it comes true. anyway, i told meera about this guy and she was like, ok jom exchange boyfie. BHAHAHAHAHA!!! jangan nak kelakar sangat ahh meera. obviously i said i don't want to. (: idk if he'll read this or not but i hope he will.

woaaaaaahhhhhhhh... i just realize that i've been saying too much, toooooooo much about this awesome guy. ^^ i'm so not going to tell his name because i want to keep it to myself. xP his name is unique. really. ok i change my mind. i'm telling his name. his name is Shaikh Uqhaili Ash-Qhalani.

noob brothers.

i know this thing would happened eventually. -.-
i dont encourage my brothers to learn how to use internet because i know what will happened. now, they're fighting over a laptop which belongs to my dad. he used to play games but now it has got internet connection so they were sort of excited over it. they made facebook and add my friends. i was like, WTF?! if u want friends, go and add YOUR friends. u guys dont have to add MY friends because they dont want to chat with u. -.- i was their first friend when they made fb yesterday and there were updates about my status and there's this status where i carut2 about those bitches. i was like, OMGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!! COVER COVER! just hope they're stupid enough to understand about it. xD

bored.

ok. school's over and i'm deadly bored. idk what to do now. i want to go somewhere but i dont have the money and permission from my mom to do that. so here i am. blogging and doing nothing. just watching kurosagi. it's still early if i want to cook anything for lunch before umi come home. one of my brothers went to kl trip this morning and i totally forgot to give his allowance for the trip. it is their money that they kept for a long time and i'm holding it in case they need it someday. it's a pity bcause now, he cant buy anything with his money. so, it's a waste. i feel guilty. D: i gave some allowance for my other brother when he went to kl trip last saturday. so i'm like, being an unfair sister. ouch. terasa doh. D: anyway, ila asked me out to kl with fatin this thursday and i'm still trying to gain some money to buy present for my sister. i forgot about her upcoming bday which is on nov 23rd. and i still need to buy amalina's. oh wait, i decided to post amalina's present so her present can wait. xD hahaha. anyway, i'm going to continue watching kurosagi! chao.

pi mati la BITCH bodoh! babi!

i got a miscalled from an unknown number. so, i decided to text whoever that person is. here's our conversation.

red is mine and green is that whore

who is this?
ni nasir kew?
no. -.- u got the wrong person. try other num kay.
x yah nak tpu..nie kak ain ngan kak wani larh
huh?! sape ain? sape wani? sorry salah org laaaa. -.-
abs tuh nie sapew?
idk u so u dont have to know me.
who are u? humans or ghost..
i'm obviously a human. what kind of question is that?! -.-
a question was still a question..ngko x reti ckap bm kew? ak ckp hindu satg bru ko taw...ko nie org pew? mat saleh jew?
oi! i can use whatever language i want to. it has got nothing to do with u. who r u to question me about the way i talk? you're not my mother! go fuck up. kau yg tak phm bhs. dah org ckp tak kenal tu tak kenal la. tak reti2 nak stop. gatal sgt knape??!!
yes..i'm your grandmother..don't u know me..i am a girl..u? a PONDAN..
Wtf la sial! nenek aku dah mati la bodoh! kau pun nak mati mcm dia ke?! ape msalah kau la bodoh?! tak reti nk brhenti ka? aku pompuan la bodoh! kalau aku pondan, kau tu ape? babi? ke lesbian? gatal tak hbs2.

there, power tak maki aku? hohoho. sakit ati pnye pasal. dah la mak aku ade kat dpn aku. aku taktau la dorg tu mmg tak reti baca text aku sbb bodoh terlebih or dorg mmg gatal. teringin sgt nak kne fuck la tu. -.- cari pasal lagi dgn aku. padan muka. dah la eja 'ke' pun tak reti. ade ke dia pegi taip 'jew'? masalah btol dorg nie.

amalina's

well, today's amalina isyqie's bday so she's throwing a bday party. i went there by 3.30 pm. teera text me when i'm about to go to amalina's. it wasnt that great to me. it's not bcause her party was terrible or what. no. it's bcause idk most of the people. that's all. i only talked with my classmates and yana. (: amalina's presents were great. i saw them. i didnt give mine yet. i cant go out this week. so, i was planning that if i go to penang with my mom, i'll buy one of kerrelyn sparks' book for her. i'll pos laju to her and chocolates too. if it didnt melt in one day. xD well, i hope she'll wait for it. :D

Ahren Baesler. ♥

this is cool. a very good acoustic guitar. this guy's name is Ahren Baesler. he's from Eugene, Oregon. ok idk where that is but i'm totally in love with his voice. (: hahahaha. i fall in love with a guy's voice and i find that he's quite cute either. :D i'm becoming his fan!

newskin.

finally, after few months with the same blog skin, i finally changed it. hikhikhik. it seems nice with bright red. (: btw, my dad finally agreed to buy me a table lamp bcause i was complaining that every night, when i'm studying till 2, 3 am, he will wake up and go to my window and asked when am i going to sleep. he'll continue doing that every 15 minutes until i turn off the lamp in my room. -.- now, i can study lama-lamaaaaaaaa. xD i told my sis who is currently in kedah and i think she's jealous of it. hohoho... hold on, why am i talking about a table lamp when the title is 'NEWSKIN' and there's like a line about it. hahahahahaha. xD ok funeeeehhhhhhhhh.

stuff.

oh lord. nowadays i rarely update my blog. why? because i've got nothing to tell about. well, that would be because there's not too much drama here. even if there is drama, it doesn't belongs to me. so, i shouldn't butt in with it aite? my life wasn't so dramatic like how it is in penang. even if there is drama in penang about my friends that i could butt in, i wouldn't do that. not anymore because the last time i did that, we've become awkward and we didn't talk anymore and i'm not there anymore so their business is NOT my business. my function is to be their ears and mouth. i listen to them and i comment about it. that's all i can do. *sigh* -.- anyway, for the first time ever (i think) i passed chemistry and biology which i kind of sucks at it. it's a good thing that i dont have any failed subjects so far. i'm not sure about addmaths.

anyway, today i didn't go to pn jega's class bcause the pain on my leg came back and i cant walk. so, i went to tesco and buy some stuff that i need and i got busted. my friends were like, "u said your leg's hurt but then u went to tesco and not pn jega's class?" well yeah. i need stuff for myself so i have to ignore the pain and walk anyway. sorry bout that guys. oh i met one of pn jega's student at tesco. i dont know her name but she talked to me as if she knows me well. she was like, "hi raja." and i was like, "oh hi." but in my mind, i was thinking WHO THE HELL IS SHE?! o.O i was pretending as if i knew her. i've seen her several times in school but we never talk and i didn't even know her name. so tomorrow's amalina's bday party. idk what to wear and i'll get her a present after her bday because i cant go anywhere and tesco doesnt have anything that suit her taste. -.- well, i'll give her later.

hez post on my wall saying that she's annoyed with my default picture bcause it's a picture of chocolates that syakira and i bought at alamanda like months ago. most of it were mine. :D and hez was annoyed that mine was black forest and hers is hazel nuts. hahahaha. xD i might get her a black forest soon. (:

wow, all this while i was thinking what to post and walla! there u go. i've got tons of short stories to tell. that's cool. might think of something later.

oh, exams.

FEELS LIKE KILLING SOMEONE RIGHT NOW. -.-

I'M FREAKING TENSION WITH EVERYONE TODAY!!!!

FUCKING MAD WITH PEOPLE AROUND ME!!!!
MY OWN 'BFF' HURT ME, MY OWN BROTHERS BUAT SIAL!!!
THEY DON'T CARE AT ALL ABOUT WHAT'S HAPPENING IN THE HOUSE!!!
ALL THEY CARE IS WATCHING TV!!
tunggu la saat aku meletop, mmg aku bagi jahanam tv tu!
GILA - GILA TENSION!!! NAK STUDY PUN TAKLEH KALAU SEMUA ORG NAK SIAL!!! BABI!!
aku rse macam nak bunuh semua org. bagi mati terus. baru puas hati...
OMAGAWDDDDD!! SAKITNYE HATI!!!!

someone dear to me.

on this day, October 17th 2010, Sunday, i've lost someone who used to be a very dear person to me. she's one of my best girlfriend i ever had. a person whom i known for more than 2 years. whom i care so much. she betrayed me and my friends. she hurt my feelings. very much. she made me cry. i asked her to change to her oldself.

try to be yourself. before the day comes, i'll treat you like i never know you before. i'll treat you like i never befriend you. from now on, we'll be complete stranger. i'll treat you the way i used to be once you've change yourself. once i've heard good stuff about you. until then, goodbye.

99 Fun Things to Do in an Elevator. :D

1. Make race car noises when anyone gets on or off.
2. Blow your nose and offer to show the contents of your kleenex to other passengers.
3. Grimace painfully while smacking your forehead and muttering: "Shut up, dammit, all of you just shut UP!"
4. Whistle the first seven notes of "It's a Small World" incessantly.
5. Sell Girl Scout cookies.
6. On a long ride, sway side to side at the natural frequency of the elevator.
7. Shave.
8. Crack open your briefcase or purse, and while peering inside ask: "Got enough air in there?"
9. Offer name tags to everyone getting on the elevator. Wear yours upside-down.
10. Stand silent and motionless in the corner, facing the wall, without getting off.
11. When arriving at your floor, grunt and strain to yank the doors open, then act embarrassed when they open by themselves.
12. Lean over to another passenger and whisper: "Noogie patrol coming!"
13. Greet everyone getting on the elevator with a warm handshake and ask them to call you Admiral.
14. One word: Flatulence!
15. On the highest floor, hold the door open and demand that it stay open until you hear the penny you dropped down the shaft go "plink" at the bottom.
16. Do Tai Chi exercises.
17. Stare, grinning, at another passenger for a while, and then announce: "I've got new socks on!"
18. When at least 8 people have boarded, moan from the back: "Oh, not now, damn motion sickness!"
19. Give religious tracts to each passenger.
20. Meow occasionally.
21. Bet the other passengers you can fit a quarter in your nose.
22. Frown and mutter "gotta go, gotta go" then sigh and say "oops!"
23. Show other passengers a wound and ask if it looks infected.
24. Sing "Mary had a little lamb" while continually pushing buttons.
25. Holler "Chutes away!" whenever the elevator descends.
26. Walk on with a cooler that says "human head" on the side.
27. Stare at another passenger for a while, then announce "You're one of THEM!" and move to the far corner of the elevator.
28. Burp, and then say "mmmm...tasty!"
29. Leave a box between the doors.
30. Wear a puppet on your hand and talk to other passengers "through" it.
31. Start a sing-along.
32. When the elevator is silent, look around and ask "is that your beeper?"
33. Shadow box.
34. Say "Ding!" at each floor.
35. Lean against the button panel.
36. Say "I wonder what all these do" and push the red buttons.
37. Listen to the elevator walls with a stethoscope.
38. Draw a little square on the floor with chalk and announce to the other passengers that this is your "personal space."
39. Bring a chair along.
40. Take a bite of a sandwich and ask another passenger: "Wanna see wha in muh mouf?"
41. Blow spit bubbles.
42. Pull your gum out of your mouth in long strings.
43. Announce in a demonic voice: "I must find a more suitable host body."
44. Carry a blanket and clutch it protectively.
45. Make explosion noises when anyone presses a button.
46. Wear "X-Ray Specs" and leer suggestively at the passengers.
47. Stare at your thumb and say "I think it's getting larger."
48. If anyone brushes against you, recoil and holler "Bad touch!"
49. Bring a water pistol. Soak everyone's shoes.
50. Start brushing off invisible bugs from your arms, screaming "Aaughh! Get them off!"
51. Challenge your neighbor to a "Tic-Tac-Toe" tournament.
52. Laugh hysterically for five seconds, stop, and glare at the other passengers like they are crazy.
53. Charge into the elevator dripping wet, holding a towel and wearing only a bath robe. Mutter something about how husbands/wives always come home early just when it's getting to the good part.
54. Make chalk drawings on the walls.
55. As the elevator is going up, jump violently up and down, shouting "Down! I said down, dammit!"
56. Crouch in one corner and growl menacingly at everyone who gets on.
57. Try to get a game of "Twister" going.
58. Wrinkle your nose and smell the air repeatedly. Sniff at your neighbor suspiciously, give a disgusted frown, and take a step away.
59. Find a crowded elevator and pace back and forth inside it.
60. Walk in, face the back and go about two inches from the back wall.
61. Walk in, and start reciting a shopping list in monotone.
62. Stand right in front of the doors when waiting to get on. (This gets a good reaction from the people inside.)
63. Once inside, stand right in front of the doors, waiting to get out. (This gets a good reaction from the people waiting to get on)
64. Wait til the door is almost closed then pry the doors apart with a painful expression on your face.
65. Sing anything by Guns 'n' Hosers while pantomiming the lyrics. (I love her but I had to kill her, would be good)
66. Ask, "Did you feel that?"
67. Look at the ground while standing in the corner and moan softly.
68. When the doors close, look at the person next to you and yell, "Your nostrils they're like wind tunnels, SUCKING UP ALL MY AIR!" Then scream and collapse, when the doors open, get up and calmly walk out.
69. Comment one by one, on the clothing of all the people riding in the elevator.
70. Push the emergency stop button and say "Now it's time for you all to DIE! Just kidding." restart the elevator.
71. Wander from corner to corner of the elevator during the course of the journey.
72. Hit every floor button, and at each floor get out and say, "Nope, this ain't the right one." Get back on and ride to the next floor. Repeat.
73. Explain to some poor innocent stranger all about the complex dental work you supposedly received. Get them to look in your mouth and everything.
74. Tell some poor sod your complete life history completely out of the blue.
75. Ask for advice on a completely disgusting problem.
76. Get a vote from the entire elevator about some completely pointless issue.
77. Say, "Omigod, did you hear that?" And look completely panicked while not uttering a single intelligible word.
78. Sit in the corner and meditate. "Ohm."
79. Pick up the emergency phone and try to order pizza.
80. Run like hell while the security guards try to find you to kick you out. (This can be applied to all)
81. Wear an earphone with the cord inside your jacket, carry a walkie-talkie. Once inside the elevator, stop it and say. "Williams FBI, I need to see some ID. Look at everybody's ID restart the elevator and talk into your walkie-talkie saying, "It's ok he's not on this one. But we think he did manage to find bullets for his gun."
82. Say to an older lady "My you've got nice hair." Pull out a pair of scissors and look suggestively at her.
83. In a foreign accent say "You are very beautiful." to a young girl. Pull out some money and say "How much to purchase you?". Indian accents work well for this, like the guy on Short Circuit.
84. Do all of these things with a friend, while both of you are wearing trench coats and dark glasses.
85. When there's only one other person in the elevator, tap them on the shoulder and then pretend it wasn't you.
86. Push the buttons and pretend they give you a shock. Smile, and go back for more.
87. Pretend you are a flight attendant and review emergency procedures and exits with the passengers.
88. Ask if you can push the button for other people, but push the wrong ones.
89. Call the Psychic Hotline from your cell phone and ask if they know what floor you're on
90. Hold the doors open and say you're waiting for your friend. After awhile, let the doors close and say, "Hi Greg. How's your day been?"
91. Drop a pen and wait until someone reaches to help pick it up, then scream, "That's mine!"
92. Bring a camera and take pictures of everyone in the elevator.
93. Move your desk in to the elevator and whenever someone gets on, ask if they have an appointment.
94. Leave a box in the corner, and when someone gets on ask them if they hear something ticking.
95. When the doors close, announce to the others, "It's okay. Don't panic, they open up again."
96. Swat at flies that don't exist
97. Tell people that you can see their aura.
98. Call out, "group hug!", then enforce it.
99. Talk in to your cell phone as you enter on the ground floor press floor 5 and when the door closes, in a shock voice say "what do you me theres a gun man on the fifth floor?"

things to do in a final (or a prelim) that does not matter.

Fun things to do in a final (or a prelim) that does not matter
(i.e. you are going to fail the class completely no matter what you get on the final exam)

1. Bring a pillow. Fall asleep (or pretend to) until the last minutes.
2. Wake up, say "oh geez, better get cracking" and do some gibberish work. Turn it in a few minutes early.
3. Get a copy of the exam, run out screaming "Andre, Andre, I've got the secret documents!!"
4. If it is a math/science exam, answer in essay form. If it is long answer/essay form, answer with numbers and symbols. Be creative. Use the integral symbol.
5. Make paper airplanes out of the exam. Aim them at the instructor's left nostril.
6. Talk the entire way through the exam. Read questions aloud, debate your answers with yourself out loud. If asked to stop, yell out, "I'm SOOO sure you can hear me thinking." Then start talking about what a jerk the instructor is.
7. Bring cheerleaders.
8. Walk in, get the exam, sit down. About five minutes into it, loudly say to the instructor, "I don't understand ANY of this. I've been to every lecture all semester long! What's the deal? And who the hell are you? Where's the regular guy?"
9. Bring a Game Boy (or Game Gear, etc...). Play with the volume at max level.
10. On the answer sheet (book, whatever) find a new, interesting way to refuse to answer every question. For example: I refuse to answer this question on the grounds that it conflicts with my religious beliefs. Be creative.
11. Bring pets.
12. Run into the exam room looking about frantically. Breathe a sigh of relief. Go to the instructor, say "They've found me, I have to leave the country" and run off.
13. Fifteen minutes into the exam, stand up, rip up all the papers into very small pieces, throw them into the air and yell out "Merry Christmas." If you're really daring, ask for another copy of the exam. Say you lost the first one. Repeat this process every fifteen minutes.
14. Do the exam with crayons, paint, or fluorescent markers.
15. Come into the exam
16. minutes into it. As you walk out, start commenting on how easy it as.

"Jangan jadi seperi lilin, membakar diri menerangi orang lain. Jadilah seperti kasturi, kita wangi dan mewangikan orang lain"

- Mashitah

Things To Do in A Public Toilet

• Comment "Pooh, who did that?"
• Complement people on their shoes.
• Introduce yourself to the person in the next stall. Strike up a conversation.
• Provide 'strenuous' sound-effects.
• Ask the person in the next stall if there's anything swimming in THEIR bowl.....
• Discuss the pros and cons of laxatives.
• Scream " Oh my GOD! What the hell is THAT?"
• Simulate a drug deal.
• Pretend to fall in (with appropriate sound effects).
• Roll Easter Eggs under the doors.
• Start a sing-a-long.
• Act schizophrenically.
• Knock on the doors of occupied stalls and ask if there is anyone in there. If so, ask if they are busy....
• Masquerade as a door-to-door salesman.
• Ask loudly "When does the movie start?"
• Write 'nerdy' graffitti like "Please wash your hands. Thank you."
• Kick in stall doors, camera in hand.
• Pour water over the stall door onto occupant.
• Say "Oops.... missed" while syringing water out around the bowl and under the walls and door into other stalls.
• At night, switch off the lights.
• Run around naked yelling "Where's the fish?"
• Collect a door charge.
• Ask "Is there a doctor in the house?"
• Impersonate Elvis. Be convincing.
• Ask whether anyone can see your pet sewer rat/river python/axolotl.
• Write essay questions on the toilet paper.
• Put cling-film (Glad Wrap) over the toilet bowl.
• Offer refreshments.
• Replace rolls of toilet paper with rolls of sand paper.
• Run in, yelling "Free Willy!"
• Charge admission.
• Electrify metal urinals.
• Leave a ladle in the toilet bowl.
• One word: GOLDFISH.
• Make a jello in the bowl.
• Place a sign advertising "Driver's side airbags" as standard.
• Remove stall doors.
• Glue seat and cover down to bowl.
• Place signs warning of 24 hour video surveillance.
• Make stall doors lockable only from the OUTSIDE.
• Put itching powder on the toilet seats.
• Leave a fried egg floating in the bowl.
• Replace soap in dispenser with custard.
• Completely soak the towel in the towel dispenser, or the paper towels if available.
• Make kitty litter trays that fit into toilet bowls. Install.
• Replace condoms in vending machine with tampons (or vice versa).
• In one stall, attach the toilet bowl to roof. (Advice for young players: Don't leave the water in while you do this....)
• Create a crime scene complete with police tape and chalk silhouette.

do you know?

some random facts that i found:
- The word 'byte' is a contraction of 'by eight.'

- The dollar symbol ($) is a U combined with an S (U.S.)

- Maine is the toothpick capital of the world.

- Barbie's measurements if she were life size: 39-23-33.

- The tune for the "A-B-C" song is the same as "Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star."

- Des Moines has the highest per capita Jello consumption in the U.S.

- Pinocchio is Italian for "pine head."

- Tablecloths were originally meant to be served as towels with which dinner guests could wipe their hands and faces after eating.

- Tourists visiting Iceland should know that tipping at a restaurant is considered an insult.

- When glass breaks, the cracks move faster than 3,000 miles per hour. To photograph the event, a camera must shoot at a millionth of a second.

- A violin contains about 70 separate pieces of wood.

- During your lifetime, you'll eat about 60,000 pounds of food, that's the weight of about 6 elephants.

- Dolphins sleep with one eye open.

- A sneeze travels out your mouth at over 100 m.p.h.

- There wasn't a single pony in the Pony Express, just horses.

- Fingernails grow nearly 4 times faster than toenails.

i miss her.

just had a chat with FARAH DIBA ALMAYANDA. the bestest gf i ever had. well, including amalina and ila of course. she told me how terrible her day was. i pitied her but i can't do anything to help her except hear and give some encouragement to her. it's like ALMOST everything had changed when i've moved to Bangi. why? if i can be there for her and support her like i always do, i will do it. but it's too bad i can't. anyway, we had a great fun tonight. (: it's been a while since i last chatted with her. gosh, i miss that crazy and ego girl. well, just hope that i won't change like other people do. i like the way i am and i know you too. (^o^)




FARAH DIBA! I MISS YOU. (:








p/s: kalau yg lain nmpk mati aku. -.-

what a day. D:

idk why but i feel really tired today. ayie called me at 1.37 am. crazy guy. i didnt even realize that. i just knew about it when i checked my phone. i was like, "WTF?! ok, what did i say to him?". anyway, this morning when i woke up, i was really really really tired and sleepy. i slept back at the hall when umi was at the kitchen. if she finds out that i was sleeping, she'll kill me for sure. >.< then, i sleep AGAIN in the car. gosh, i must be really sleepy at that time. then, when we were having assembly, one of ila's friend talked to me. turn out to be that she likes anime too. :D how happy. then, when we were studying chemistry, there's a HUGE lorry went to the badminton court. it makes a lot of noise. -.- then, there's an announcement for our class. they wanted us to take home our text books. so, puan jega was like, "takpe la. pegi kemas barang kamu." we didn't get to study much. blame the school. -.- it was chaos in our class.

- skip this part. i so not want to talk about what happened -

but thanks to Meera, Ila and Ika for helping me out this morning. we have to changed classes with form 3 students. maths was ok. a bit confusing at the beginning but ila helped out. ^^ there's lot of road blocks. so, right now i'm still confused about which way we have to take to go to classes. -.- tchh... bio was AWFUL! for the first time in my entire life, i sleep in bio class. awesome. i didnt even know what Pn. Saira was teaching or saying. there's no use i'm going to school today. addmaths... hmm.. idk even know what we were doing in the class. i was texting ayie when pn banu was in the class. pffttt... i dont wanna talk about it. but seriously, he's annoying. so, today's school was like meaningless. i should have ponteng and go to sleep. zzzzz.

prank calls.

today, i went to Amalina's house for one reason: STUDY! but we didn't do it till the end. -.- wait for her house to be empty then we ordered mcd delivery. the funny thing was that the operator keeps on repeating the same thing over and over again and at the end it says "terima kasih" wtf?! we were like "what the heck was that?!" i was laughing. idk whether it's her house telephone's fault or the operator. then, she used her cellphone and guess what? it works! BHAHAHAHA!!! weird wasn't it? we tried like 3 to 4 times using her house phone and it didn't work but when we tried by using her cellphone, it works. wow, mcd pun pandai pilih telefon. and then we ate till we full. then we get bored and dont know what to do. so, we did 'a few' prank calls. we called my ex and her ex and most of the guys in our phonebook. :D hikhikhik. it was fun. i called one of the guy in her phonebook. this is what we're talking about:

he: hello?
me: oh helo. ermm.. *insert name here* ade?
he: *insert name here*? dia takde.
me: dia takde?
he: haa. dia takde.
me: err... dia pegi mne ek?
he: dia takde. eh, hari takde kelas ke?
me: haaa? ape dia tadi? *shock*
he: ahhh.. takde pape la.
me: oh ok.
he: err... ni sape ek?
me: ahhh... orang la.
he: ye la. sape?
he: makhluk Allah. hahahaha.
he: ni sape?
me: err.. takpe la. salah number kot. ok bye
he: haa.. ye la. ok bye

and then we laughed. it was sort of funnehhh actually. then, amalina start la tacing tacing semua. then, suddenly her parents came home and there's one thing that we didn't do and that is, STUDY! so, amalina was like, "keluarkan buku keluarkan buku!" and the comic that i was reading automatically hidden under the pillow. hahaha. amazing. XD i had fun today and like i said before, it is DANGEROUS to be in amalina's house. why? because i wont do other things except READ.COMIC.BOOKS. :D

what a great day :D

today, went to kajang with my dad and my twin brothers because my dad wants to go shopping for raya. my mum doesn''t want to come with us. i bumped into Jaya at kajang. i was on my way to kedai kasut when i saw him. he was talking to the phone. he saw me and he just stared. i turned twice to make sure i saw the right person and then i smiled at him. he walked away. ok, that is just SO weird. then, my mum said she wants to go shopping at Nilai but unfortunately, it was raining heavily. so, my mum decided that we go to PLKN. after that go buka puasa somewhere and went to this night market at jalan reko. lame i know. there's this one stall having lintah for bekam. so, my mum asked me to do it because i always got migraine. a BAD one. so, the pakcik pun 2 lintah at the back of my neck, it was pain for the 10 - 15 minutes. but it doesn't feel anything after that except for a bit pain as if been pinched by red ants. and now i have this huge pembalut at the back of my neck. tadi tukar pembalut, there's A LOT of blood macam org baru lpas kna tembak. lintah could be scary sometimes. ok la. it's late already. i should be in my bed right now. chao.

p/s: not a good story to tell wasn't it? hikhikhik. tak kesah la. i'm not in the mood to type anyway.

Dalmatian - Round 1.

now, i'm currently stuck with Dalmatian Round 1. :D
their MV's so cute. i like it. A LOT. the song was stuck in my head and had been playing for days. hikhikhik.
bagi kat amalina sampai skrg dia tak dgr lagi. she's stuck with Davichi - Time Please Stop. -_-'

WTF?!

my day was bored as hell! and i'm not in the mood to do anything and yet my mum nags at me just bcause of a TRASH BIN!!!! =_=
hey, it's a good thing that i clean up all the mess they made while i was asleep and all the dishes that they left in the sink UNWASH after they sahur. stupid people. bukan nak say thanks ke ape. siap marah lagi sebab kucing selongkar tong sampah and make a mess at the kitchen. hey, she's the one who asked me to bring in the trash bin last night and now bising plak sebab ltak kat dlm. WTH la woman?!

"takkan tu pun nak bising. awak tu perempuan." -_-'

hello, you're a LADY too. a MOTHER lagi. takyah arr nak bising. pinggan kat sinki pun tak reti basuh lpas sahur tdi. nak bukak puasa pun aku yg buat. umi dok dpn tgk tv n baca newspaper lagi siap. so, be thankful la when i helped ok. takyah arr nak nag. ckp leklok pun dah cukup dah. hilang mood.

p/s: sorry for my harsh words. tgh moody sume bole jadi.

RAYA!!!!!

YEAYYYYY!!!!! my mom had decided that we're going back to Penang for this year's raya. she had confirmed with my sister about the cancellation of her bus ticket. but the sad thing is, she could cancel the ticket but she won't be getting her money back. D: my mom said that we'll be going back to penang on 29th or 30th of ramadhan. on the way back, we'll be picking up my sister in kedah. :D
then, on the 1st and 2nd of syawal, we'll go to perak (my mom's hometown). on the 3rd or 4th syawal, we'll be coming back to bangi. just to avoid mama from exploding bcause we will not be there on the 1st of syawal. i haven't brag about this thing on facebook. not yet. hikhikhik. i will post it up on fb when it is ALMOST raya. i'm happy about it. not just happy, but also EXCITED!!! can't wait for raya to arrive. talking about raya, i'll be having exams by next week and i HAVEN'T prepare yet! gosh... i'll be a dead meat after this if my grade are still unchanged. =_= well, gtg now. need to finish up darren shan's final book so that i could focus on my study. *sigh*




pathetic.life.of.raja.nurul.izzati.2010.