so no in the mood.

idk why but i dont feel happy today. i've been wearing the same stone mask whole day long. i just realize that i didn't smile at all today. not even once. if there is then it is a fake smile. i've been talking like nothing happened to me. as if i'm still the same happy person. even when i'm chatting or texting, i'll be like happy and all but in reality, there's no feelings exist. i dont feel sad. i dont feel mad. i dont feel happy. nothing. i feel nothing. i haven't eaten anything yet since breakfast. i didnt take my lunch. just dont feel like eating. -.- ok, what the hell is wrong with me?! is it that what i've keep to myself all this while, all the secrets, all the problems i'm facing is finally eating myself from inside? wow. great. why now? why when i'm starting to have a happy life? feels like going into sleeping mode till everything is over. i dont feel like talking to anyone but i HAVE to talk to people so that no one notices. well, so far no one notices. oh well, i hope tomorrow's going to be a good day. cheers! (: