aku dah penat ok? dah penat sgt.

ape masalah kau la sial?! aku ade buat pape ke kat kau? ok i admit that it's my fault that my mom cancelled the plan to go back to penang last minute and u deserve to be mad at me. yeah, i know that but have u ever think of my feelings? have you? i cried on that day. i had a fight with my mom. i locked myself in my room. kau ckp kau phm situation aku, feelings aku bile aku ckp aku tak dpt blk. yeah u said that to other people tpi knape nak kne ungkit blk psal bnda tu kat aku? on the same day u told her. ape kau igt penang tu kat seberang jln rumah aku ke? kalau ye, dah lama aku pegi. mmg hari2 aku nanti lepak situ. my mom decides everything. she's the one who's going to drive, duit dia, tenaga dia. aku sape nak suruh dia blk time2 tu jgk. kalau dah dia kata tak jadi, tu tak jadi la. aku dah mntk maaf en? kau nak suruh aku buat ape lagi? melutut dpn kau? sujud dpn kau? cium tapak kaki kau baru kau puas? i've been trying to talk to my mom, asking her every single day about when we're going back to penang. i tried ok and i still am. i even mntk paper spm dari senior kat penang. buat pe susah2 mntk dari org jauh padahal bangi ade je. bkn takde. aku tak knal senior, kwn2 aku smua knal. suruh dorg mntkkan. bukan susah pun en? bile kau buat something kat aku, u said stuff about me, ade aku ungkit? ade aku perli2 smua? takde en? kau nak tacing2, fine tacing la. i always there and play along with u. kau nak perli2 aku, mmg dah slalu pun. u said u dont deserve to be our friend, my friend, then why talked to me in the first place? u said u dont deserve to be in the group, then why joined the group? no one force u to do so. kau ckp kau bdk kmpg la, hina la, buruk la, pathetic la, amende tah lagi. have i ever said that to u? have i? dude, aku pun bdk kmpg kay. i dont buy gucci, prada and all. i dont own one tpi aku takde la smpai menghina diri mcm kau. aku dah penat ahhh pujuk kau. hari2 nak kna pujuk, nak kna perli, nak kna maki dgn kau. aku dah malas. dah penat sgt. sakit kpala aku. sakit sangat. have i ever judge you? i dont give a shit about how u look like, how rich are u, how famous are u or how pathetic u are. i tried my best to be the most reliable person for u. when i told u that i've bought the necklace for u, i told u not to tell the other kan? one of the good reason is because you're my special friend. i give u more attention and priority than the others. and what u do? u told them and now i've to spend 60 bucks to buy for them. mmg aku bnyk duit plak time2 cuti ni nak turun kl semata-mata nak beli bnda tu ja? it's worthless tau tak? worthless. tak guna aku turun kl smata-mata utk bnda tu je. tolong la, you're not the only person who's important to me. i've my love ones too ok? aku tak phm ape yg aku dah buat smpai kau kna layan aku camni. have u ever think about everything i did for u? have u ever consider about my feelings? asyik aku je yg kna jaga perasaan kau. time kau marah, kau lpas geram kat aku. penah aku ckp pape? no. aku pujuk lagi ada. when u have problems, u told me and after that everything that u said will stuck into my head for days and it gives me a major headache. kau ape tau? sbb kau tak penah nak ambik kesah pun. kau cerita masalah kau dgn wani a day before my finals, aku takleh study tau tak lpas tu, takleh focus langsung. asyik fikir psal bnda tu je. yeah u dont ask me to that. mmg kau tak suruh pun aku fikir masalah kau. aku tau tpi sbb kau my top best friend, whatever problems that u told me, i feel what u feel. i think to much and i get myself migraine. kau tau tak psal tu? tak en? aku tak penah bgtau pun en? why? sbb aku tak kesah pun psal tu. i dont mind u fill my head with your stories, your problems, your feelings smua. aku tak kesah dpt migraine bile fikir bnyk2 because i care about u and all i get is this? i guess my boyfriend was right. i dont deserve a friend like u. maybe i'm too good for u. so now u decide what to do. aku dah malas dah. kau nak ckp dgn aku, ok kau ckp. kau nak cerita ape2, cerita la. kau nak bg semak otak aku pun aku tak kesah. kau nak tacing pun tacing la. kau nak maki ke perli ke ape ke, buat la. aku dah tak larat dah. penat sgt. sorry again sbb tak dpt blk penang, bile chatting dgn kau, aku ckp dgn boyfriend aku, bile kau cerita masalah kau kat IM fb, aku tak reply sgt sbb kau asyik on off je, so everything yg aku type mcm karangan tu tak smpai kat kau and all. sorry for everything. aku malas nak gado ngan kau sbnrnye. sbb tu aku telan je smua yg kau ckp. so, kau buat la ape yg kau nak. bye.