if only you know.

if only everything could work out like how you predicted, like how you say it will, won't it be great? but you were wrong, you were totally wrong. it is not as easy like how you say it. i know i'm not like how you wish i am, how you want me to. i'm not perfect. i'm still trying to improve myself and you know, you could always say it nicely. i try to be the best for you, to make you happy, to make you proud tapi perlu ke layan camni? i know, i'm not as good like other girls, i'm not feminine enough like other girls, i'm just some typical, plain, simple minded person who is actually trying to make some changes like how some people want me to. i wish you know how i feel, how hurt i am right now.