RCE's love LETTER and TEARS...

guess what... :D
last friday evening, i sent a letter to each member of RCE...
this letter is a farewell letter as i'm moving to KL by the end of this year.
they got it on monday.
they told me thier respond after reading the letter... :D (their respond touches my heart)

ruzai told me that she cried after reading it. i asked her why everyone seems to be crying after read the letter? she told me that i should read again the letter and i will understand why.

unnie told me that she cried after reading the letter but the tears won't fall down. it stuck there in the eyes.

didy said she didn't cry but she felt a bit touched or should i say, sad. :D

atief told me that she cried after reading it.

jelly... she didn't say anything about it coz she said she haven't receive the thing yet.

aiden... she didn't say anything even though she has received the letter.

syaira, she said that she cried. she even scolded me for making her cry... XD (mianhae..)

syahirah... well, she just got it today...

so, that's how their respond about the letter...
it's kinda sad to be apart from each one of them...
like i want to do it...
it's my mom's decision..
i can't say no just like that...
besides, we have to move bcause my dad is living there and he barely come home.
so, mum decided that we move there and stay with him...
plus, he's already old and my mother is not young anymore.
when can all of us stay as a family if we didn't move to KL?
so, i just follow what my mum said.
sorry guys... i really love you guys...
i've already think of what to give you guys as a farewell present but it may take time to finish all of it...
so, if it doesn't finish before holiday, i'll post it to you guys kay... ^^
you addresses is all safe with me...
just... promise me that you guys won't move somewhere else without informing me... (:

-Raja-

weird KELANTAN guy...

someone missed call me yesterday.
well, actually.. he called but i missed it coz i was on my bed and i have to travel all the way down to the floor and plus, kna bkak laci lgi. so, lambat la..
then, i called that person back and i got a guy's voice. o.O
i asked him who is he and he asked me back the same question.
i told him that he's the one making calls to my cell so he should tell me.
he asked me whether i'm raja. (duhh... obviously...)
i reply to him a question. i asked him where he got my num. he said from a friend. he told me that his name is faisal and he got my num from his friend name ikram... *gulp*
so, i think hard and i remember a guy that i used to couple with last year is ikram.
i asked him, "kelantan?"
he reply, "ha'ah. kelantan."
WTF?! i got another kelantan guy? nvm then.
then, we texting each other. i found out something shocking!
guess what? he told me that he's been waiting for me. he wants me to be his gf. o.O
but i told him that i've already had someone. so, it's impossible for us to be a couple.
he asked me to break up with my bf by today. WTH is that?!
he knows me for quite a long time but i've no clue on who is he.
he said he likes me and he's been waiting.
but... i'm too lazy to continue about him. i'll make one long essay if i go on...
but i'll proceed if someone wants me to do so... :D hehe...
for sure, i'm not breaking up with saiful just because he told me to do so...
i won't do that...

WEIRD DREAMS... BREAKING UP??!!! O.o

guess what?
yesterday i've got a really weird dream...
i was sleeping around 2.30 pm and i've got this kind of dream...
well, i was dreaming about meeting saiful. he was sitting somewhere in a group and listening to some kind of speech. then, i went to him and i hugged him from behind and well...
i kissed him on the CHEEK!!! OMFG!!!!! this is crazy! but luckily it's just a dream.
i was thinking about telling him yesterday but i don't think he cares anyway.
so, what's the point telling him right?
our relationship is kinda... well, not like how we used to be...
i think we're gonna breaking up sooner than i thought.
this is THEEEE LONGESSTTTTT relationship i've ever had...
it's been more than half a year.
just now, he text me.
sounds like he's breaking up with me.
WTF?!!!
i'm not writing this anymore.
i've had enough already.

2009 Golden Disk Award!!!!!! XD

woot woot!!!!
on dec 10th, there will me 2009 Golden Disk Award...
remember last year? alaaaa... TVXQ won the award right?
they won bcause of their album has been sold over millions...
remember? of course la... :D
but this year... bcause of all those crisis happened between SME and TVXQ make TVXQ unable to be one of the nominees.
kinda sad huh... well, it is..
but there is other artists that qualify to get this award...
let's see who's the nominees... :D

Disk Bong Sang Award (similar to best album)
Super Junior - Sorry, Sorry
G-Dragon - Heartbreaker
SG Wanna Be - Vol.6 - Gift
Lee Seung Chul - Mutopia
Drunken Tiger - Feel Ghood Muzik : The 8th Wonder
Seo Taiji - Atomos
Shin Hye Sung - Side 2: Keep Leaves
Bobby Kim - Love Chapter 1
Jo Sung Mo - Second Half
Jang Gi Ha and Faces - Living with Barely Anything
Epik High - E
Lee Sora - Winter Song
Baek Ji Young - Sensibility
Lee Seung Gi - Shadow
FT Island - Cross & Change
Park Hyo Shin - Gift Part 1
Brown Eyed Girls - Sound G
MC Mong - Humaniamal
KARA - Revolution
Fly to the Sky - Decennium
Lee Ssang - Hexagonal
Younha - Peace Love & Ice Cream : Part.A
Lim Chang Jung - Return To My World
Lee Sun Hee - 사랑아
Outsider - Maestro
Dynamic Duo - Band of Dynamic Brothers(10.21)
Wheesung - Vocolate(10.21)
IVY - VOL.3 - Goodbye Tears
Lee Soo Young - DAZZLE
2pm - 1집정규앨범 - Hottest Time of the Day



Digital Bon Sang Award (similar to best single / best digital single)
SNSD - Gee (The First Mini Album)
2NE1 - 2NE1 1st Mini Album
Super Junior - The 3rd Album 'SORRY, SORRY'
Baek Ji Young - Sensibility
Davichi - Davichi In Wonderland
Son Dambi - Type B
SS501 - Boys Over Flowers OST
2NE1 - Fire (Digital Single)
Lee Seung Gi - Will You Marry Me (Featuring Bizniz)
8eight - The Golden Age
2pm - 2:00PM Time For Change
Brown Eyed Girls - 3rd Album Sound G.
SNSD - The Second Mini Album: Tell Me Your Wish (GENIE)
K.Will - Dropping Tears
Lee Seung Chul - A Sad Story Than Sadness O.S.T 2nd
SG Wanna Be - Vol. 6: Gift
Outsider - Maestro
Hwayobi - Hwayobi Mini Album
4minute - Hot Issue
Seung Ri (Big Bang) - REMEMBER
Shinee - 2009 Year Of US: The 3rd Mini Album
SS501 - SS501 Rebirth



Samsung YEPP Popularity Award
Super Junior
G-Dragon
SG Wannabe
Drunken Tiger (Tiger JK)
Seo Taiji
Shin Hye Sung
Bobby Kim
Jo SungMo
Jang Gi Ha and Faces
Epik High
Lee Sora
Baek Ji Young
Lee Seung Gi
FT Island
Park Hyo Shin
Brown Eyed Girls
MC Mong
KARA
Fly To The Sky
Lee Ssang
Younha
Im Chang Jung
Lee Seon Hee
Outsider
Dynamic Duo
Wheesung
Ivy
Lee Soo Young
DaVichi
Son Dambi
8eight
K. Will
Seungri
SHINee
Lee Seung Chul
2PM
SNSD / Girls' Generation
2NE1
SS501



Samsung YEPP Rookie / Newcomer Award
2NE1
T-ara
4Minute
f(x)

Rock Award
Jang Gi Ha and Faces
YB Band
Boo Hwal
Cherry Filter



Rap / Hip Hop Award
Drunken Tiger
Epik High
MC Mong
Lee Ssang
Outsider

source : allkpop.com

HAIR CUT!!!!! XD

haha.
just got a new hair cut last sunday.
it was crazy. XD
umi asked me how short do i want to cut and i said until collar.
i also said i want to make my hair thinner coz it's so lebat!!!
she said she can make my hair thinner. so, ok la.
after that, i fucking don't know how she cut and i can feel that she's cutting the part touching my shoulder!!! =_=
aq tauuuu da yg umi potong bgi pndek!!! ):
then, i asked umi, "umi, umi potong nipis ke potong pndek??"
she said, "potong nipis la."
i knew what happened already.
when she asked whether i want to cut more or not, i said, "NNNNOOOOO!!! DA LA UMI... ANIS TAU DA PNDEK." =_=
i'm so damn pissed...
then, she asked if i want to cut more my front hair?
HELL NO!!! i said x mauuuuu.
i know it'll turn out badly if i do so. =_=
i'll try to snap a pic of my new hair when i'm ready... :D